3b

1. I'm grateful for:

a. Rachel joining me for the ward Christmas party tonight

b. getting asked to dance for each and every slow song

c. having a decent paced load at work today!

5. Random Act of Kindness: helping someone pick up trash when her table full of stuff fell

day 2b

1. I'm grateful for:
a. Jess joining me downstairs just to chat today
b. Charity inviting me over for chicken curry dinner
c. a hilarious talk with Rachel over the phone.  So entertaining :)

5. Random Act of Kindness: Saw a patient and finished a note which I didn't have to do

Day 1b

1.  I'm grateful for:
a. Leem, the EP fellow who has such a positive spirit
b. Stacey, for her patience
c.  For getting Dr. A to genuinely laugh once during a patient encounter.  I have now found my future challenge... to get him to genuinely smile each day

2.  In the bathroom this morning I ran into a colleague, a resident whom I met last Friday.  The initial exchange lacked that human touch, so it left me wanting to connect a bit better.  So this morning I asked her name again, and we chatted for a few minutes about this and that and then we settled on the topic of her name.  She's from India, and her name in her native language means rose.  Not a family name, but a beautiful one nonetheless.  For some reason this interaction had so much more connection than the first, even though it was but a few moments.  I'm realizing that when I take the time to add that personal touch, it makes all the difference.  And that, my friend, was my meaningful moment of the day.

3.  Exercise: sadly, work went a hour over, and so my little gym was closed.  I really need to work out in the mornings, but that means 5 am wake up time :(

4. Meditation: prayer over meals as well as nighttime prayer today

5. Random Act of Kindness: I fed coworkers, but!  I've used that in the past, so I'm gonna go with holding the ridiculously heavy door open for a fellow hall walker.  I know it's small, but it's a start!

21a

1. I'm grateful for:
a. blow dryers
b.  the strength of an individual to stand up for what's right
c.  having my Tuesdays and Thursdays charting days

2.  So the hot water went out in my house, and boy is it cold!  I texted the landlord, but didn't hear back from him.  And I just got done with my workout, so I was in dire need of a shower.  So I realized I could either mope about and think wooo is me, or I could get to work.  Guess what I chose? :)  Two boiling pots later, I had enough to dilute the cold water to a luke warm bath.  I vigorously scrubbed, as that kept me warmer, and then blow dried the hair, which brought me up to regular temp.  ANd now I'm plotting for tomorrow... they have a shower at work, so I've got my plans set.

3. Exercise: Jillian Michael's Shred video

4. Meditation: prayer

5. Random Act of Kindness: gave food to a coworker, he looked hungry


So tomorrow is the start of my new 21 day challenge!! and I choose #5 to work on every day, more creative, more meaningful :)  Random Acts of kindness, here I come!

20a

I'm grateful for:
a. All of the conversations that came from updating an address book
b. the first day of outreach clinic going so well
c. Jason, a friend of mine, teaching me a trick to communicate effectively with men

2. memorable moment: realizing that my attending is a respectful man, and that I can see has opened up my ability to express myself and learn.

3. Exercise: just a few flights of stairs, this will be my next goal for the next 21 days

4. Meditation: miss

5. Random Act of Kindness: tried to feed my attending to no avail

19a

I'm grateful for:
a. Jason, Shaline, Rachel, and Steven joining me for a wonderful evening at the Christmas devotional and for hot chocolate and cookies after :)
b. spending time with my brother and our extended family for Emma's blessing
c.  getting my meals cooked for the week

2.  Memorable moment today was when Tristan played chase with me and only me.  Muahaha!  I'm the Aunt that has won him over with silly faces and running around like a fool

3.  Exercise:  miss!

4. Meditation: prayer

5. Random Act of Kindness: I moved over whilst driving on the highway so that the person in a rush could get on by, rather than slowing to 5 under and giving them the stink eye.

18a

"There is no passion to be found in playing small -- in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living"  -Nelson Mandela


1. I'm grateful for:
a. Sleeping in until 722 am this morning.  How the body knows to reprogram itself!
b. for Russ, the employee of Auto Zone, who helped me walk through the steps of changing wiper blades
c. for making butternut squash and storing a week's worth in the freezer for future lunches.  One more step to healthy :)

2.  Today's memorable moment was when Greg (twin brother), Lisa, Tristan, and Emma were sealed together in the LDS temple.  We believe that families have the potential of becoming eternal.  I don't know much about the afterlife, but I do know that family ties extend beyond the grave.  Greg hardly ever shows emotion, and while he was kneeling across the alter from Lisa and Emma, he was staring into this little girl's eyes and realizing that she was becoming his little girl.  Forever.  I could see my brother growing in that moment.  Oh, how my heart loved him and her and his little family just a bit deeper today.

3. Exercise: tidying home, and wrapping Christmas gifts (can that count?)

4. Meditation:  in the temple

5. Random Act of Kindness:  I put poinsettias on the doorstep of all of my neighbors.  oh!  and I gave Russ a box of chocolates for helping me out

17a

I'm grateful for:
1.  learning a bit more about rugby
2.  My fellow PAs and NPs that totally rocked the house in working through the patients today
3.  A dear friend's mom being discharged from the hospital

2.  A fellow gave up his seat today during grand rounds so that I could sit and eat lunch.  very kind

3. Exercise: run

4.  Meditation: prayer

5  Random act of Kindness: took the toughest chart in the stack today

16a

1. I'm grateful for:
a.  having time to finish my notes
b.  Jess taking the time to give feedback on them
c.  free dinner with drug reps tonight

2.  Got asked out for the third time this week.  Here's to being the new girl on the block.

3.  Exercise: stairs again!

4. Meditation: miss

5.  Random Act of Kindness:  It seems I always have friends that need some TLC via the phone.  A good chat with a good friend

15a

“I like to call in sick to work at places where I’ve never held a job. Then when the manager tells me I don’t work there, I tell them I’d like to. But not today, as I’m sick.” 
― Jarod Kintz, This Book is Not for Sale


1.  I'm grateful for:
a.  My attending, Dr. A, being a willing teacher.  He knows his stuff, really really knows it.  And doesn't rush me.
b.  finding a water fountain at work that actually tastes good, and not like metal pipes
c.  driving in the snow without crashing

2.  Memorable moment of today.  Talking with a new a wise friend about the power of forgiveness.

3.  Exercise: stairs

4.  Meditation: on the bus ride home I tried to focus on the breath.  It's hard when you're being sloshed about!

5.  Random Act of Kindness:  Introducing members of the ward to each other

14a

“Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power.” 
― Abraham Lincoln

1.  I'm grateful for:
a.  not falling in the snow as I walked to the bus stop
b.  Feeling like I could create a decent note on the third week of work
c.  the cardiac rehab gym.  Seriously grateful I have a place to work out on cold days such as this

2.  Polly, one of the nurses that works on the pacemaker team, was totally kind and wanted to get to know me a bit more.  She's a biker as well, and offered to let me ride her husband's mountain bike during the winter months with her.  New biking partner AND finding a good fitting bike, can a girl ask for more!

3.  Exercise: 3 mile jog

4.  Meditation: prayer

5.  Random Act of Kindness: I could tell one of my colleagues was having a rough day, and sometimes you just need a pat on the back

13 a

“The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.” 
― Mahatma Gandhi

1.  I'm grateful for:
a.  Brandy giving me The Fault in Our Stars, for it is a beautiful read, the kind that can make you literally laugh out loud on one page, and then let the tears go on the next.
b.  Angel's happy text this morning which I got on the bus
c.  feeling at ease with a patient today that I could laugh with them for a solid half of the interview

2.  I was with Will in clinic today, and we each saw about 3 patients a piece, not bad I say.  And I created a few notes with ease.  Will's a cool guy, super intelligent, willing teacher, and easy to chat with.

3.  Exercise: 2 miles jog, then stationary bike

4.  Meditation:  prayer, and Alma 1-2

5. Random Act of Kindness:  Giving someone the benefit of the doubt.  And a little love note to a friend

12a

"Like anybody, I would like to live a long life. Longevity has its place. But I'm not concerned about that now. I just want to do God's will. And He's allowed me to go up to the mountain. And I've looked over. And I've seen the Promised Land. I may not get there with you. But I want you to know tonight, that we, as a people, will get to the promised land!"

Martin Luther King, I've Been To The Mountaintop speech, his last speech on the eve of his assassination





1.  I'm grateful for:
a.  Marcie inviting me and the gals over for dinner, and for her support with my upcoming racing goals
b.  This four day weekend.  I enjoyed every minute of it.
c.  A good conversation with George about dating and life and the such

2.  I had a mini battle with myself this morning as to whether I wanted to go on a hike or to the first part of church. After getting all dressed in my hiking gear, I sat a moment and thought through my decision.  A conference talk from this past general conference came to mind, one where the mother asked the father and sons if they wanted to go on a drive instead of to church.  And that one decision made all the difference, for they never went back again.

I'm learning to recognize God's will, and then obeying swiftly.  So I knew my answer, and changed into my Sunday best and was grateful for making the right call.

3. Exercise: pass

4.  Meditation: prayer

5. Random Act of Kindness:  Invited Raeann over for dinner with the gals, she's a good gal.

11a

“This is a good sign, having a broken heart. It means we have tried for something.” 
― Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love


1.  I'm grateful for :
a.  Somer being my date tonight to the Utah Symphony
b.  Getting the laundry processed
c.  The wonderful sample lady at Wal-Mart who had closed her booth but was handing out coupons for chocolate, and took the extra step to offer me a piece without me asking, even though the shop was already packed up.

2. Tonight was the night that Jakob and I were to go to the Utah Symphony together for the Messiah Sing In.  He actually bought me the tickets for my birthday awhile back, and he hit the bulls-eye with the choice, for my father and I made it a tradition to go each year ever since I was a little girl.   I'm entirely grateful for Somer joining me on this little adventure.   It was a bit emotional, and I seriously struggled whether I should go or give the tickets to her to find a fella to bring.  I'm entirely grateful that I went.  We had a lovely date which included dinner at an Italian bistro, then headed over for the concert.  As it was about to start, my thoughts began to close me in a downward spiral thinking that the man who was so thoughtful to listen and give me this gift, the man who loved me deeply, and I cared for him... I chose not to continue on that path because I could see it wasn't the right fit at this time.  And as the doubts started to come in, Somer turned to me and with that genuine beaming smile, the one that fills your heart with a deep love and hope in what's to come... she knew just what to say to comfort me in those few moments.  I am so grateful for her.

And as an added bonus, members of the Mormon Tabernacle Choir were scattered throughout the entire audience, decked out in their blue dresses and white tuxedos.  It's always been on the bucket list to sing with the MoTab, and that dream became a reality tonight.  I've never heard a better rendition of Handel's Messiah from the audience than I did this evening.  It was simply glorious.  And you could tell the conductor was lovin' every minute of it.

3.  Exercise: Can errands count?

4. Meditation: good prayer with Father, asking to comfort those that stand in need of comfort tonight.  Especially Jake. and Somer.

5.  Random Act of Kindness:  It was for me tonight.  I allowed myself to go, and to be happy that it happened.

10a

“The most wasted of all days is one without laughter.” 
― E.E. Cummings


1.  I'm grateful for:
a. The man working at Home Depot that paused and smiled so kindly at me this early morning whilst there was a bit of craziness with the Black Friday shoppers
b.  Tristan's Love.  When he realized I was leaving after I stayed the night at my brother's place (I gave him a few top of the head kisses on the way out, he was a bit distracted from the TV with Curious George), he stood up and whined, and pointed to the door to get one extra kiss and "bye-bye" wave, to which I gratefully obliged
c.  The prompting to walk a little further than the grocery store, and my steps took me downtown to Temple Square, and as luck would have it, it was the tree lighting ceremony tonight.  Absolutely beautiful!  And such joy in the air.  When the lights came on, there was this audible gasp from the audience, followed by lit up faces and robust clapping

2.  I was a bit surprised to see this posted on one of my guy friend's Facebook wall: "A man with dreams needs a woman with vision.  Her perspective, faith, and support will challenge his reality.  If she doesn't challenge you, then she's no good for you.  Men who want to stay ordinary will tell you not to have expectations of them.  Men who want to be great will expect you to push them, pray with them and invest in them."  This was meaningful for me to see a man post this.

I think the same can be said of a woman.  I've thought about this, and attempt to see if I could mirror the woman in this case.  Here goes:

A woman of quality needs a man with integrity.  His perspective, faith and support will enlighten her reality.  If he doesn't inspire you, then he is no good for you.  Women who want to stay ordinary will not bring out the best in you.  Women who are of worth will expect you to protect them, provide for them, and  most importantly, preside with them side by side.


3.  Exercise: 3 miles

4. Meditation: good chat with the Lord whilst walking to and from Temple Square

5. Random Act of Kindness:  I unfortunately didn't prepare myself for this trip downtown, so I had nothing tangible to give to this  homeless man.  The best I could do was give him the biggest smile from my heart.

9a

1.  I'm grateful to be posting this via my phone. 3 points of gratitude include reading all of the responses on Facebook where people voiced what they were grateful for, my dear brother and his wife for taking me in on this Thanksgiving Day, and for the loved ones that called to let me know how much they care

2.  one memorable moment from tonight was when Tristan, my little nephew, & I gave a big hug to my brother. Tristan often has a habit I love wanting to do the same thing over and over again, and so we would go up to my brother and say " hug daddy" and give him a hug, and then look at each other and laugh and then give him a hug again, and then laugh.  he has this adorable mischievous grin, and he's so tiny, so he'd look at at me with these big eyes and smile and I could read that he was going to give greg another hug, in so Tristan would dive right in and hugged my brothers kneecaps and then pull away and look at me and then dive in again.

3. Exercise: free day

4. Meditation: prayer

5. random act of kindness, help sister tidy up Thanksgiving dinner and changed the baby

8a

"...as I was with Moses, so I will be with thee: I will not fail thee nor forsake thee." Joshua 1:5
As quoted by President Monson in his last conference talk


1.  I'm grateful for:
a.  Teaching myself to see the value in all people, and for those who help me see the value in myself
b.  learning to communicate my feelings without reacting to a situation
c. the people in my life that look beyond their needs and serve others

2.  Rough night tonight.  I gave a gift to someone that responded in the exact opposite way that I imagined.  Instead of bringing joy to their lives, my gift brought pain.  And I felt terribly hurt by it.  This, I know, will take a considerable amount of time to heal for both parties.  But.  I have committed to choose joy.  And so I stand by my commitment to follow through with tonight's blog.  One meaningful experience tonight is the power that can come through prayer.  After the phone call, I was having a difficult time controlling my emotions, to the point that when I tried to get up to get a drink of water, I literally couldn't find the strength to stand.  I've never had that happen to me before.  And so my legs gave way, and I fought it for a few seconds trying to rise up, my arms trying to take the weight of a falling body.  I realized I was fighting a losing battle, and so gave in and crumpled on the floor. I knelt there beside my bed and prayed to feel loved.  And the sobbing subsided.

3.  Exercise: Last chance workout this early AM by Jillian Michaels

4. Meditation: time with the Lord tonight

5. Random Act of Kindness:  gave someone a hug at work today.  Two people, actually.  It brightened both our days.

7a

1.  I'm grateful for
a.  getting out of bed to do my gratitudes tonight
b.  Stacey, for clearing out her desk so I can have a place
c. water, water and more water.  on the treadmill tonight my bottle wouldn't fit, so I was restricted a bit in water consumption.  and boy do I love clean water

2.  Interaction with Kyle and Laura, the grad students in the cardiac rehab place.  Good people

3. Exercise: 3 miles on treadmill

4. Meditation: Deepak's Inspired Me, oh!  and I did do my meditation last night after I posted, so woo hoo!

5. Random Act of Kindness: check up on a friend that's going through a really rough patch

6a

1. I'm grateful for:
a. this kid
b. a wonderful chat with Raeann on the way home from FHE
c. Sara sitting down with me today and teaching me about the various imaging studies I can order on a patient
d.  the bus driver this AM was the same awesome guy from a week ago, not as bubbly today.  Probably a rough Monday.  Still it was nice to see him.  And the other bus driver entirely stopped to pick me up even though I was running late!

2.  A meaningful moment today was when I went to the cardaic rehab gym and started to actually clock my run.  I did a workout this AM (HIIT type of stuff with Jillian Michaels), so I'd like to use that as an excuse as to why I fatigued after only over a mile or so, but the way I see it is good baseline.  No where to go but up!  I jumped on the stationary bike, which is nothing like riding my road bike, but I quickly got in a few miles before I had to catch the bus.

3. Exercise: last chance workout in AM and 1 mile jog and 5 mile stationary bike in evening

4. Meditation:  tried to on the bus, sub par attempt

5. Random Act of Kindness: Phone call to a friend that needed some loving

5a

I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.
Nelson Mandela

1. I'm grateful for:
a. Tom making dinner tonight and having a mini game night
b. Courtney, the gal I sat by today during sacrament meeting, and how we chatted it up about chemistry
c. making my lunch for tomorrow, healthy style.

2.  It was a moving talk today during sacrament meeting, a gentleman with CP spoke today about hope, about mistakes.  He quoted Ether 12:27 :

 " 27 And if men come unto me I will show unto them their^aweakness. I ^bgive unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my ^cgrace is sufficient for all men that ^dhumble themselves before me; for if" they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make ^eweak things become strong unto them.

He spoke of how his CP was a gift, in that it was the crinkled wrapping paper on the outside, of a present, but once unwrapped, the gift inside.  A man with incredible perspective.

3.  Exercise: miss

4.  Meditation: miss (aside from prayer each day)

5. Random Act of Kindness: I could see a friend needed a bit of a talk, and so I sat by him an listened